Saturday, September 1, 2007

Worrying myself sick

Is it really possible to make imagined things become real if you really, really believe in them? It didn't work for me when I tried it with Santa Claus or winning the lottery. But I do feel there is power in positive thinking.

For instance, I'm walking just fine these days and it is because I am doing well with my MS... or at least I think I am. Could it just be that because I don't have all the facts and I only perceive that I'm doing well that I am a walking miracle? If so, I don't want to know the results of all the MRI's I have had lately.

It could be that the reason they've been "lost" or never received by my new neurologist isn't due to miscommunication between hospitals, but rather I am a curiosity being studied by a team of doctors. Maybe they have seen my MRI's and know that I should be a vegetable confined to a bed, but realize that because I don't know this, I am still up and walking.

In that case, I don't want to know. I believe in the power of positive thinking because I have seen the power of negative thinking. I do it to myself all the time. I can talk myself into a panic attack quicker than you can say "OH NO!". And I even have this detached, analytical part of my brain that sits back saying "there you go again... you brought it on yourself."

If it's true that negative thinking can effect your health, then why can't positive thinking? Today I'm practicing "The Little Engine That Could" alternative medicine. I am going to feel better, and thus BE better, because....

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.

Just between you and me, I'm sick of worrying myself sick and I think I'm going to give it up as a hobby altogether. If anyone has any great links about the power of positive thinking that they'd like to share with me, I'm all ears. Please post them as a comment.

1 comment:

  1. Thanks so much for those links! Interesting stuff. I will definitely try and practice a little self affirmation. :-)


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